The Bleeding has stopped, the mental bleed at least. Happiness is returning and in a way, I'm more stress free than I've ever been. Maybe that's just because I am comparing to a few months ago when everyday I felt like my mind was going to explode, but I feel good for once.
Today is crazy busy, but I feel good. I really have to stop double booking my days.
In other news, I might be going to Burning Man. Small chance, but a chance. Now I just need to get all my affairs in order to finalize this plan. This event is sort of overwhelming.
Monday, July 28, 2014
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
A Post About Nothing
I was honestly just curious to see how much space I could fill of a page with all the random jabbering that goes on in my head.
First off, I'm listening to 3 hours of relaxing music. Why I am doing this, I'm not sure. I say this because I'm already like 75% asleep at work and relaxing music probably isn't the best thing for my condition.
Secondly, I'm realizing the folly of chugging a cup of coffee whilst walking. This was an attempt to wake me up a little and rejuvenate me for the rest of the day, but the only thing that it's accomplishing so far is to give me a dire need for a restroom, which, by the way, I cannot use currently without locking my boss out of her office.
Thirdly, I must have some weird pheromones being emitted from my body that attract unavailable girls, because I have had several strange situations concerning them lately. It's quite flattering, but it leads to some awkward shut downs, which are never fun.
Fourth, I can definitely tell the coffee is starting to kick in, energy wise. I am typing quite a bit faster and feel nice and toasty now. Still in dire need of the lavatories though.
Fifth, the web I've been spinning is starting to get tangled in itself, but just as soon as it looks like some threads might snap, I'm given an out and the web reinforces itself. It's funny how things work sometimes.
Sixth, just finished looking up coffee memes to send to my friends because I'm bored. Coffee is probably the only thing keeping me upright at this point.
Seventh, I'm supposed to have a meeting with my boss at 11am today (it's 10:59am) And she is no where to be seen. It's alright though, I don't mind the meeting getting cut short, but I'd really like to use the facilities right about meow.
Eighth, I should probably rewatch supertroopers.
Ninth, Just got the new lists. Time to do work.
First off, I'm listening to 3 hours of relaxing music. Why I am doing this, I'm not sure. I say this because I'm already like 75% asleep at work and relaxing music probably isn't the best thing for my condition.
Secondly, I'm realizing the folly of chugging a cup of coffee whilst walking. This was an attempt to wake me up a little and rejuvenate me for the rest of the day, but the only thing that it's accomplishing so far is to give me a dire need for a restroom, which, by the way, I cannot use currently without locking my boss out of her office.
Thirdly, I must have some weird pheromones being emitted from my body that attract unavailable girls, because I have had several strange situations concerning them lately. It's quite flattering, but it leads to some awkward shut downs, which are never fun.
Fourth, I can definitely tell the coffee is starting to kick in, energy wise. I am typing quite a bit faster and feel nice and toasty now. Still in dire need of the lavatories though.
Fifth, the web I've been spinning is starting to get tangled in itself, but just as soon as it looks like some threads might snap, I'm given an out and the web reinforces itself. It's funny how things work sometimes.
Sixth, just finished looking up coffee memes to send to my friends because I'm bored. Coffee is probably the only thing keeping me upright at this point.
Seventh, I'm supposed to have a meeting with my boss at 11am today (it's 10:59am) And she is no where to be seen. It's alright though, I don't mind the meeting getting cut short, but I'd really like to use the facilities right about meow.
Eighth, I should probably rewatch supertroopers.
Ninth, Just got the new lists. Time to do work.
Nightly Insanity
Things could not be crazier lately. I'm pretty sure I'm completely past my prior issues, I still talk to my ex, and we're cordial, but the feelings are definitely different.
The options are vast, but everyone of them has a catch.
Last night was a definite test. I had the option to do something very, very unethical. I chose not to, even though there will probably not be another chance for something like that ever again, but I'd rather wonder what could've been in this scenario than face some severe consequences down the road. This is one time that I've been proud of my drunken self. He normally makes some piss poor decisions when it comes to sex.
The options are vast, but everyone of them has a catch.
Last night was a definite test. I had the option to do something very, very unethical. I chose not to, even though there will probably not be another chance for something like that ever again, but I'd rather wonder what could've been in this scenario than face some severe consequences down the road. This is one time that I've been proud of my drunken self. He normally makes some piss poor decisions when it comes to sex.
Thursday, July 3, 2014
Pickle in the Middle
Well, well, well.... What am I to do. Go with the safe option and not have the excitement element? Or go with the Exciting option and live life scared that things might blow up in my face?
I guess there is a Plan C....
Cut all ties and try to sort things out elsewhere....
I'm kind of tied to this city now. Oh what a mess I've created for myself.
I guess there is a Plan C....
Cut all ties and try to sort things out elsewhere....
I'm kind of tied to this city now. Oh what a mess I've created for myself.
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