I do not understand why my subconscious mind drifts back to her. Every night, I am visited by dreams that I can't get out. I want to rip them away from my brain, but they cling tightly and tear at my sanity.
I get in these moods. Terrible, awful moods.
I lash out at the smallest things, but not in a physical or verbal way. My thoughts turn so dark, I wish the worst on people. People aren't supposed to be this hateful. My mind feels sick, like it's dripping with poison and venom. I just want to be free of this negativity.
And yet you remain. The darkest part of me that I can't let go of.
If the de ja vu is true. Then the story really isn't over. I'm scared of it... and yet it draws me in.
